1.26.2012

Incubating

Me and my sis
I don't really talk about being pregnant all that often, in fact, I enjoyed keeping it a secret for the five months that I did...for the most part anyway. A few knew here and there, but for the most part, I never mentioned it. And I liked it that way.

I think I'm finally getting out of that totally awkward stage, the borderline stage of is she pregnant, or just getting fat? Going to the gym was especially awkward, I felt like I had to walk around touching my stomach, hand on back, for nothing more than the chubby pooch that didn't look pregnant at all, just chubby. I wanted people to believe I was pregnant, and not at the gym as a new years resolution to finally shed some pounds. Although, I'm never opposed to shedding some pounds, and if that's your new years resolution, good job! But working out and knowing you're not going to be losing weight is a hard thing to grasp when you're pregnant. The scale does nothing but go up, not down. I'm still trying to grasp that that's a good thing. When is gaining weight good?! Oh yeah, when you're pregnant. Awesome.

Last night I finally had a dream about being a mom and having a child. Usually I just dream about my poor little kitty who has yet to come home. Clearly I still have high hopes for his return. I kinda miss that little guy. But my dream, it seemed so real, so exciting, so great. And then I woke up. I surprised myself that I was actually sad the dream wasn't real, I guess I've finally reached the point of being really excited about having a baby. Only six months later.

Call me horrible, but feeling like crap for six months straight, the last thing I ever felt was excited. I still don't feel awesome, especially when I have to start unbuttoning my pants half way through the day, sometimes the zipper goes down too, and that's when the beyond uncomfortable feeling takes over. All I can think is, I'm not even big yet! Regardless, I'm starting to feel excited, so I'll take the uncomfortableness and all and run with it. Quite literally, and running with pressure down there...well, it's a little more difficult than I'm used to.

But his kicks, his punches, and all of the movement of his that I feel, it let's me know that it's all for a good cause, because he's coming whether I'm ready or not. But let's be frank here, I'm going to rock at being a mother! Ha

So, bring on the next three months of pregnancy, getting bigger, and being totally and completely over the top uncomfortable. I can only imagine the loads of fun it's going to be, especially when I remind myself that May is the prime time for tornadoes here in OK. I'm sure fun won't even begin to describe what that month has in store for us.

12 comments:

AJ Candrian said...

I hope your shirts are long enough so that no one can see your unzipped pants. The thought of that makes me laugh. And you're going to be a darling mom.

Jane said...

You look so cute! Good luck with everything, you will be great!! Maybe you will have a red head?!?:)

Joy said...

Time to start wearing only stretch pants...or get maternity pants. Do women even wear those anymore? The first time I had a dream about my child it turned out the baby was a cat & your Dad hated it! HA HA...that was with when I was pregnant with Rob.

Brittany said...

I guarantee that either way, no one is paying as much attention to you as you think. That is, until you get huge. I would be totally intrigued to watch a pregnant woman work out. Just chasing James around the backyard yesterday, I wondered how they do it. It just feels so weird.

JazznJenna said...

pregnancy is such an adventure! I hope someone has shown you the rubber band around the pants button trick; it gives you a few extra weeks in your regular pants. I didn't know your cat was lost, I hope he comes home! Cute picture of you and your sister :).

It Started With a Wink said...

I remember that feeling, I had male coworkers akwardly look down at my belly with horror and back at me, I figured they would eventually figure it out, but one of them got called to Iraq, I guess he'll always wonder, was she pregnant or getting fat, haha

Lindsay said...

Oh lalala~! Baby baby baby! COngrats that is way cool! :)Ok, beyond cool.

Kristin said...

Yeah finally an "almost there" belly pic!!!! So excited for you girl!

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Cynthia Lovell said...

CUTE picture!!! You look Great!!! We're so Excited for you & I agree with AJ. You're going to be a darling mom!

Colie said...

At least you have a legit reason for the unzipped pants. The only time I have a legit reason is Thanksgiving. :)

Vicky said...

I stumbled upon your blog... I was pregnant when my sister was too, it was so much fun. Go get some maternity pants, you will feel so much more comfortable. You still have a few months left, don't torture yourself.